It’s December 2013 and you feel like things are never going to get better, you’re tired, overweight and miserable. I know you are in a job you hate and that you feel there’s no escape from but I promise, things are going to change a hell of a lot in 2014.
How do I know? Well fast forward to December 2015 and you’re in a job you love, you’re three stone lighter and you are living with your amazing boyfriend after nearly 6 years of living long distance.
It’s not going to be easy, in fact it’ll probably be the hardest thing you’ve ever done, but I know you feel you can’t get any lower at this point and that you want to make a change. You’ll start slow, one cold morning in January you’ll wake up and it’s like a lightbulb goes off in your head – you’re fed up of feeling out of shape and unhealthy, you don’t care that its frosty and windy outside, you are going to put on your gym gear and your battered old trainers and you are going to go for a run. You drive yourself to the local reservoir where no-one will see you and you run – well, you attempt to. You manage half a mile that day and you ache like mad afterwards but the rush and the sense of accomplishment you experience is like nothing else you’ve felt in the past year. That’s all it took, to get you hooked.
Every weekend in January you go for a run, slowly increasing the distance, slowly getting stronger and feeling like a cloud is lifting from around your soul. You start eating healthy, to help fuel your runs and you start to see the weight coming off. People are noticing and it feels good.
You find your confidence is growing and with this new found confidence you get yourself a new job, a job that you love! You are going to make some amazing friends and they are going to help you with your next steps on your journey to happiness. You join a gym and find a new love for gym classes and working out.
By the end of 2014, you are a stone and a half lighter and your confidence has improved dramatically, you no longer care what others think of you and you feel completely happy in yourself. You think back to how you felt in 2013 and vow never, ever to go back to that place.
2015, if you can believe it, has been an even greater year – you’re now in a good rhythm with going to the gym, you know what your goals are and you finally feel like a strong, confident woman (as cheesy as that sounds) and don’t recognise the shy, unhappy, anxious girl you used to be.
As you sit in your room in 2013, I wish I could tell you just how amazing the next couple of years are going to be for you. It only gets better from here. I know you probably don’t believe me, but trust me, in a few weeks that lightbulb moment will happen and you will never look back.
Keep smiling Rachel, you are stronger than you think and that stubbornness is about to become a hell of a lot of use!
Lots of Love,